Last August I told a manager over me that I wanted to pursue a different path. His remark was, 'I'm glad you want to do that, but let's stick with the plan'. I still don't know what the plan is or was.
Is the plan to lock me into a position that is basically career sui-cide. To prevent me from moving on and doing what I enjoy. If that's was the plan, it's working. Congrats on ruining someone else's aspirations.
I work in an area that everyone wants out of. Two have managed to escape but not without managers/supervisors putting obstacles in the way. They got lucky and managed to get around those obstacles. The rest of us, not so much.
There is no training or skills improvement outside of what you do/study during your free time.. But without opportunity, it means nothing. We've been forced into roles as administrative assistants despite our eroding skillsets as engineers.
Stuff is thrown at us in an adhoc manner with no guidance or direction beforehand. We're intentionally held back or information is withheld until the last moment. Then it's surprise, use your imagination. BTW, if you mess up, we'll let you know about it after the fact.
Another manager told me, if I didn't like what I was doing. Go apply for a job elsewhere. I'm not talking about a different department, but a totally different company. In other words, I have to leave the company to do what I want to do or advance my skillsets. Is how I took his remark. Which is sad. So advancing or improving one's skillsets, or moving to a different area, while staying at NTT is nothing but hyperbole.
I feel as if I have no worth other than I fill a position that a contract mandates. But doing anything of value isn't available for me in my currrent role. And everyday a little more of my confidence and self-esteem is stripped away.
Life in the cloud, it's just not rainbows and unicorns.