I had a target on my back and hung in there the whole time. Actually succeeded and exceeded in the complete he-l and misery a few (managers) made my life for years.
We are talking years.
YEARS.
My marriage, family life, and social life were all deeply affected in the worst ways possible.
These truly rotten to the core managers who are hallowed out without a trace of their sole left really ruined my life. Do they know or care? I doubt it. Would they probably find some kind of satisfaction in it? Probably.
It took being diagnosed with the worst to escape.
I won’t say it for confidentiality reasons, but I don’t know how much time I have left.
Was the years of misery worth it? No.
At the time, during the most miserable period of existing, I couldn’t swallow letting 1-2 people (managers) people push me out of the company I have worked so hard and had so much dedication to for years.
I suffered all of it. The whole playbook. What were meant to be Impossible workloads that I made possible, 0% merit increase, 0 recognition from direct management, (although I would get praises from other business lines because of my work ethic which of course is non existent in my year end review), isolation, rumor spreading, manipulation, sabotage, out right lying in my reviews and grading my work. It’s all there. Not going to say everything here. But it’s all there.
I stayed true to my work ethic the entirety and that brings a mix of emotions. On one hand I feel good that my intentions were always pure no matter what, and I truly hope I made a difference for someone else in my work even if it was only the slightest. On the other hand, I feel incredibly sad that it was to the overall benefit to managers who gave me he-l on earth.
I am sorry for everyone here. Please take a step back if it gets overwhelming and put yourself first.
If you can’t put yourself first, because you have to take care of business then remember to NEVER lose faith and always hold it close.