As I pass the old building on my way to my new place of work I get these weird feelings.for some reason I always turn and look just to see if I can remember good memories. Can't describe the feeling but its like all of a sudden I get sad and seeing the soulless buildings. It truly is sad because it has to bring back good memories with old colleques and the good times. They took away all the good memories from me. Oh well, life moves on and still breathing.
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Terrified of the ZOMBIES streaming out of those buildings. Zombies/intel workers ready to eat brains.
I think about the movie idiocracy. Specifically the scene where the smartest man it the world is found guilty by a crowd of cheering buffoons led by a mindless judge. His lawyer instead of defending him joins with the herd in tossing him under the bus.
My feelings are very similar. It is not that I was laid off, it is HOW I was laid off. I didn't qualify for VSP, but got ISP. I was walked out as if I did something bad. I didn't get a chance to say good bye. My life at Intel is unfinished. The hardest for me is not having closure. So when I look at the buildings, which I now drive by every day, I still cannot believe that I no longer belong there. 15 years of passion and love for Intel and now we are strangers. Feels like a very bad break up. But this experience boiled down my life to what is really important, and who are the people who actually care about me. So I definitely see the silver lining.
Be glad that you are not around all those 'horrible' people anymore. Just seeing them made me sick.
@xnc - Your thinking reminded me of a true story at Intel going back nearly 20 or more years. A guy who had joined the company around the time that I had, had risen through the ranks and at some point became a VP in the server platforms group (can't remember their name at that time). In any event one of his very senior technical guys came to him one day and told him that he was cashing in his chips (and in those days Intel was pumping out millionaires like the Googles and Apples to follow.
Long story short the VP (who had become a very demanding task manager) asked him what he could do to try and convince him to stay on. To that he responded with a simple question,...." Will you promise to love me forever?" The VP looked at him with a stunned expression with mouth hanging open and said nothing. The other guy then finished the conversation by telling the VP that "this is the deal that my wife and family had made with him", and at that he left.
If you don't know what co-dependency is, find out and realize how they have manipulated you. It's even more important for those still working there.
It's just a job. Nothing more to them, so don't be sucked in to it being any more for you
You realize who your real friends are after VSP/ISP.
It is a stressful and emotional time, but you realize all the work propaganda about respect, fairness, transparency are all BS. In the end we are all just beast of burdens to your boss, your bosses boss and BK is no different. Sadly BK is not too smart, so doing the right thing is hard for him to comprehend. How can you blame someone that doesn't have the capability to do the right thing?
Embrace your family and those that really care for you, pass buy and hold on ill will to those that never really cared for you, after all they were just someone in you rearview mirror. As to the company, feel good you are gone from that circus. Think about it, you likely spent more time there than with people who really cared about you, and look how they treated, you move on with your life to spend time and do things for the people that care.
Intel used to be a fantastic company to work for, going back 25 years or so. Then after the visionary and innovative leader (Andy) left, bean counters took over, and now there isn't a single innovative strand left in their senior management ranks.
They are now fully reliant on frauds like Ajay Bhatt for making key decisions and influencing the senior management team. Noone should be surprised by the ethical/moral/financial demise of this once great company. Intel systematically eliminated pretty much every great professional who sprouted a gray hair to save $$, and replaced them with new college grads and H1B slaves from India.
Hey Intel,... Instant Karma's gonna get you,...... what goes around comes around.
I went by at 5:30Pm one day to meet a friend and saw all my old co-workers streaming out. I felt sick because I realized it was all the same people doing the same routine 1 year later. I felt happy I was not there anymore doing the same old, same old.
Now I will think dooooom doom doom doom doooom as their new bong
PTSD
The ongoing feeling, being wary of backstabbing colleagues and managers made me leave a year ago after 10 years there.
When I pass next to an Intel building I don't even turn my head.
I'm sorry for the loss you all experienced. I'm still there but with a very strong sense of guardedness. I will never let my guard down at that place, because of this, I won't be able to sustain the environment long term.
OP, I feel the same exact way you do. The final painful memories I have of Intel often overwhelm what remains of the good ones - and looking at the building does make it worse. I left 2 years ago on a VSP that was not voluntary. Life outside of Intel has been so great that I can only describe Intel as oppressive (though at the time it didn't seem like it).
The thing that makes me angry is the propaganda that Intel uses to try to persuade you that you are part of an "Intel Family"... not in those exact words maybe, but that is the intent of the message. A company that lies solely for the purpose of squeezing more time from you and then throws people away like trash is evil. Intel has fallen far, and unfortunately still has far to fall.
Same here, it used to feel like a family place, a safe place. Now, it makes my stomack sick. Laid off last year. 15 years with the company
Even worse to know that for the rest of your life you are not welcome back