First, here's a bit about me:
I took this job during a difficult period of my life - hired on in May, started in July. I'm a web developer still early in my career but due to burnout, lack of discipline, and some mental health issues, I wasn't able to land a new dev job after a previous layoff.
Truth be told, I fu---d up. Hard. My head wasn't in the game, and the industry swiftly moved on without me, and now I'm playing catch up.
My thoughts:
- I am not passionate about Insurance - I'm learning very quickly that I hate it.
- Prior to web development, I did various call center roles at various large-scale banks. So far, State Farm seems to be the most "wage-slave", micromanaging, and stressful out of all these jobs.
- The density of material to learn, the short time we have to learn it & the way the material is taught is incredibly frustrating and demoralizing.
- Decent benefits.
- Incredibly disorganized "internal tools", obscure naming conventions and acronyms. If I had a dollar for each time I thought "fu-k this" since starting, I'd be able to quit this God-forsaken he-l job.
Idk how people stay in a role like this while remaining sane. I mean, most of these people have been here 20+ years. At least this is a great wake up call to put things back into perspective on why I left this sh---y a-s corporate industry in the first place.
I'm just hoping I can nail another opportunity while I thoughtlessly glide through the remainder of training, because I will likely be unprepared come time to be released to the floor.