I’ve been here a few years now and while it has not always been great working at this place, I have grown close to my coworkers. Tomorrow is going to be an awful day. They seem to be okay with it as we have known a long time this was going to happen sooner or later. It seems cathartic for them that it’s finally over after constantly waiting for each layoff over the last 2 years to finally be over to see if they were sticking around longer.
Myself and a few other contractors are what’s left of our department. Our fate is tbd and all we know is we have a month before we “wrap” or get extended. It’s been awful every year since the first big layoff watching coworkers from other teams go but it finally hitting home has left me numb.
I came here with aspirations and goals. This place used to be my childhood. I would sit on my basement floor watching hours of tv wanting to just grow up so I could go see blink 182 play a concert during spring break at Daytona beach. When I got here I had no clue the nightmare I was walking into.
I was told people here were petty, played favorites, and it was very political here as well as cheap. Every single one of those warnings were true… for some people here. But my coworkers, they cared they were understanding they were on my level of wanting to make this a better place but knew it was impossible due to our terrible leadership. They always had my back through some rough times and would always help when needed.
We are just numbers on paper to rich people getting richer by the day. Loyalty means nothing here and while I want to continue working to collect a check, it feels like I am just being held back while everyone else moves on because who knows how much worse it’s going to get.
Every goodbye email I get is surreal and I feel more and more hopeless about my chances of staying on. This place is full of bad vibes and even worse management. I know I should be grateful I kept my job or whatever it currently is but the cement ceiling above my head feels like it’s been pushed down even further.
I feel like I’m in a state of shock doom scrolling not paying any attention to the world around me right now because I can’t comprehend how on Monday when I sign on, my coworkers won’t be here to talk to.
Obviously we will keep in touch but it felt like eventually things would change for the better here maybe certain people would be pushed out making room for actual positive growth but no not this time.
This is my 7th layoff in 2 years. I watched many many good people lose their jobs since the first one. Many great creative people who kept this place alive with hope while cable was dying around us. Departments around me disappearing while some of the worst people moving up into positions of power. It was never fair.
Anyways I’m going to just hope for the best as usual. I’m so sorry to anyone who lost their job from this layoff and I’m sorry to the rest of us who have no clue what’s going to happen next.
Keep your heads up.