I’m a Citrite of 10+ years. I am getting cut in a couple weeks. I already know… 100%. I’ve been interviewing over the past month, so I’m heading out the door as prepared for this moment as much as I possibly can be. My feelings? The unfiltered truth is this: regardless of my confidence in my abilities, glowing performance reviews year after year, a solid network on LI, etc. — I feel scared of the uncertainty. The severance amount, no matter how fat, cannot assuage the fear of heading into a market that is receding by the day. Ok? I’m copping to the fact that I’m a little scared.
Here’s the other part of my truth: I asked my boss to cut me. I don’t want any part of this “new and exciting opportunity” called Cloud Software Group. I have to get off this thing. It represents everything that is soulless and wrong in tech today, and as we learned on Tuesday (10/4), the new guy is a slimy creep that has been installed to strip away anything remotely resembling joy in the day-to-day working process and turn and burn the “business units” under the CSG umbrella. What is that anyway? A portfolio within a portfolio? Regardless — I believe it to be a garbage landscape to build a career upon.
I’m not posting this out of bitterness, or some thought that I think I’m smarter/better than anyone feeling differently — I’m posting this b/c there’s nothing on this board that provides an accurate portrayal of the reality for a ton of my fellow friends and coworkers. There’s two sides to this, and while TK represents Satan — he could be anyone — so it really comes down to the fact that, regardless of whether you’re leaving or staying — it’s going to be an experience that none of us deserve. That’s the real truth. Both options have major suck attached to them.
I don’t know where I’ll end up, exactly, but I’ll promise you this — I’m going to give them that slice of he-l right back. I learned how to slay dragons with all of you, and I’m going to put this one down too… with extreme prejudice.
Eat the rich — let’s f***ing roll.