from another post
I left in March on my own , right after the AIP had cleared my back account , no notice, just resigned. With what I have followed on this forum, I would have been clipped soon after my most excellent exodus. No regrets here..
I think what you are describing could be considered Stockholm Syndrome , where one will idolize the oppressor, or perhaps one accepts of even enjoy the decline of Anthem , and not put themselves in a better situation.
I would liken such with that scene in Hellraiser , where newly minted Cenobite, Dr Chennard emerges from the phone booth to survey the Leviathan Obelisk (Anthem) only to utter "..AND to think, I HESITATED.