Has anyone else had the experience of just not being able to cope with the persistent concerns of both not being able to keep up, plus the feeling that their own impending notice is a forgone conclusion, just waiting to happen?
Several months ago, I had so much anxiety, over my VP having an ongoing conniption fit over the set of metrics my team produced, not "aligning" to the "strategic message" being tried to "crafted", for an "incredibly important executive meeting"; that I worked myself up into such a panic, that I got in an automobile accident. I'm not saying the accident was 100% due to my state of paranoid stupidity at the time, but it was a major contributing factor.
My spouse ordered me to go to the doctor, and I broke down on how much of a mess I was psychologically. My spouse explained to the doctor, on how I was a completely different person than I was years ago. We went over life's issues, and framed out how I got here; and surprise, one of the biggest root cause issues was deemed to be my ongoing fear of being restructured.
The doctor placed me on several medications, several for anxiety, and several because since working my behind off for the past few years, my behind has grown to twice its original pre-Cisco size, due to a healthy diet of carbs and sugary Starbucks drinks.
I've been on these meds for several months, and am loosing weight. I feel much better, but to be completely honest; I know longer give a crud about this place. I don't like the people I work with, I really do not like my leadership. I don't know why I believed for a long time, that this was a fantastic place to work. It su-ks.
We have talked it over, and am going to try to stay as long as I can. It is refreshing to not care. Yes, I will do the work, be expect the bare minimum.
Sad because this company is being ruined by the greed of a small population of enabled executives, who just don't care to slice of whatever population of employees are needed to make their pockets fill up even faster, for the sake of the AI evolution.
If you don't like the message above, well aren't you just living with your head in the sand. Hopefully our paths won't cross, because I don't want to work with you, or worst, for you.