Simply put, I didn't want to work anywhere else. I thought I had found my place in the American workforce here at Micron. The problem was that these managers, one in particular, formulated a categorically false and outright blasphemous narrative of me suggesting I was the exact opposite. My commitment to my team was a very well understood sentiment among my colleagues and my customers in spite of a nearly diminished morale at the end.
This is why I never had a negative peer eval in my entire career at micron and this person's discontent towards me was never reflected in my numbers, my quality of work, my actual reputation among the customers, nor was it in agreement with the truthful perception my peers had of me.
Maybe this is one reason perhaps why I didn't receive any more peer evals after my last promotion and why there was less apprehension for management to start documenting mickey mouse bullshit on me? Without any paperwork to the contrary such as high peer eval scores, what mitigating factor will then contradict the dirt this person tried, and succeeded in digging up on me?
The f---ed up part is that none of her conduct is illegal but she knows what she is doing and their isn't a damn thing I can do about it. Now, you may understandably see all of this as hearsay and crazy and conspiracy nonsense. All I can say is that I know I am right. Th lead of leads and section head did not like me and did not appreciate my unfavorable global survey responses. I made them look bad because I wouldn't let things go that unquestionably needed to be addressed.
I made them look bad because I didn't kiss up to them, I told them the truth instead. I made them look bad because my free spirited nature was seen as unprofessional to them. I made them look bad as did the other people in my department did who are paying the price to protect two self-centered, morally bankrupt people's egos. I can say for myself that I never have nor did anyone of us have any aspirations of ruining or threatening anyone's else's careers. I thought I was doing the right thing but apparently that was not the case.
In the end, we were a problem for them, especially my supervisor's boss. How else then can someone possibly explain why, except for truly low performers, only those people under her leadership have been laid off? None of us made the pay grade the remainder of the department did. So how can anyone possibly tell me that our guys lost their jobs as a means of austerity initiatives when the most expensive players on the roster are always left alone???
And if you still aren't convinced, then how come she always initiated department wide celebrations for only a select few people and never once for anyone in our group?? Still not convinced? Then can someone explain why she had an awful reputation from her previous department and why she kept her job when she committed a classic example of a conflict of interest on the job with one of her direct reports, a shift supervisor??
I am seething because as far as I can see, this workforce reduction for those of us in our area was actually getting fired in disguise and they know it!! I stayed to the bitter end hoping someone would someday replace her and the department head and things would be OK for me and the team morale would rebound again. Obviously, I failed in that endeavor.
I will say this much also, had I believed by now that this whole ordeal was the result of what Mark had emailed the company about as it pertained within our group, and that it was not used instead as a platform and opportunity to dispose of team members who our leads deemed as a threat to their own egos and image, most of which had nothing to do with bad work performances, I would have left the matter all alone and never came here saying all this on this web page at all. It would still would have s---ed and it would have been very upsetting, but I would have had peace of mind that I was on good terms with management and it was just not my lucky day. But, I know that did not happen, not mere speculation, I know for a fact that my own supervisors turned on me because their lead didn't like having my name on the department's payroll and others too. I was robbed of my career and it wasn't part of a cost reduction initiative to protect the future of the company. For our group, it was an initiative to protect two people's egos with impunity.
Bottom line: I loved my job and my coworkers but I hated the lead of the shift teams in our section, and I never trusted her from day one and neither should anyone else.
I realize I am idealizing matters and I accept that I have flawed perceptions on certain affairs and therefore I must, for the sake of principal, retract other erroneous sentiments I had on day one of unemployment. My rational mind is cognizant that, in the grand scheme of things all this is nothing more than business as usual in the private sector. I am not such a megalomaniac that I believe corporate targeted me personally, that is comical at best, delusional on a grand scale at worst. My rational mind however cannot grasp what has happened and obviously has not accepted it either. Furthermore, my rational side understands that as far as operational expenditures are concerned, labor is by far the most expensive on the list. I also understand that, while unfortunate, there comes a point where corporate has few, if any other alternatives towards immediate and effectual cost reduction standards that will boost confidence for the company's investors than to carry out a workforce reduction. We both understand the significance of our investors in terms of keeping micron in business, no need to explain here.
But I also want to apologize to you for being a condescending a--hole, as you can imagine it has been an awful endeavor for me and most certainly many others. Hair thin triggers can quickly erode sound judgement as I have clearly demonstrated for you, perhaps in my comments above for all I know. Then again, I don't want to do you an injustice by rationalizing my ogrish remarks either. But, is it realistic to expect a pleasant reaction when something that had personal and sentimental meaning, sometimes becoming a huge part of our own measure of success and failure, is just....gone and having no one there to even thank you for your service? I guess we all have different responses to that question don't we. Not right or wrong, just different.
In the end, for me it was like losing an old friend in metaphorical terms and definitely one of the worst experiences in my life. That being said, I humbly admit that being receptive to other's opinions is unfortunately a task I don't believe I am qualified for anymore, until time changes that. I abdicate my fake moral high ground from earlier that I built upon personal attacks and I instead want to admit that I was wrong and out of line for that embarrassing behavior.
Equating a positive perception of Micron as a characterization of someone who is weak and lacking personal integrity are not characterizations of strong reasoning and honesty from the person who authored such a baseless claim. If you feel that way about Micron, then I not only say that I'm happy for you, but I also hope for the best in your future endeavors, and for the company's as well. Kick some a--! (Except for two of you, and you know who you are).