Thread regarding Devon Energy Corp. layoffs

I feel sick and so sad

I am just not coping and cannot handle this . No job and not one personal friend from Devon has reached out. What are we now trash? Just a horrible feeling that I can't bear. I have no hope no life no reason to live. Thank you Devon for nothing. I go now to a better place to be at peace. Do not fret this is my choice and can not be reversed now. Tylenol causes liver damage that can't be reversed. It may take a while but it will be for the best that I do this. I struggle with being bipolar so this is taking me to a low I cannot bear. I just need the pain to stop. I have no family no kids. My life was Devon and they threw 11 years of service out the door for younger talent with no experience. My dignity was taken from me as I was escorted out like a criminal. I took about 60 pills at noon today of Tylenol PM, 30g. I plan on repeating this daily until my liver gives out and die. I hope someone finds me before I smell bad. Should take about 5 days. The thought of death makes me know my pain will end. I doubt Devon cares they have ruined My life. God Bless, LORD HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!!

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Post ID: @OP+G1wXX3i

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I hope by now your corpse is starting to stink and your cats have started eating away at you. What a ridiculous cry for help. The world won't miss you when you splatter what little brain matter was in your soft head anyways. Good riddance!

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Post ID: @adgp+G1wXX3i

Hey, I don't know you but you are a better person with more to offer than realized. DO NOT BELIEVE FOR ONE MOMENT YOU ARE NOT AN IMPORTANT SOUL. Your feelings are real, our heart is aching, you're confused asking yourself, "WHY ME"? It's not just you, we all feel the same, because we took the attributes we had pounded down our throats each review, to learn them, live them and don't dare not practice them every hour of every day. You, I'm sure took your job very serious, you were a loyal employee. There almost everyday, if not everyday, weekends and late evenings. Devon was your life. I bet I'm right. But my friend, Devon just gave you a place to distribute your knowledge. You have just been set free to go and share your gift with someone that really will appreciate you.. You are important, you are special and I know if you will just close your eyes and ask God to be your guide and fill you with peace you will be filled with a joy beyond your own comprehension. Please do not do anything to harm yourself or at least let us just come and share the same feelings, extend a hug and let you know You are too special to destroy the plan God has for you...If no one has reached out that doesn't mean they don't care. We're all a little shaken and that happens, but you my friend will be OK... Tomorrow will be a great day for you, take a nice walk enjoy your life, do something that makes you laugh. May God Bless your prayers

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Post ID: @7itx+G1wXX3i

OP - how are those Tylenol working out? You dead yet?

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Post ID: @6srs+G1wXX3i

With a few exceptions, Devon employees did not stay in touch with each other when people left or retired. That is more a commentary on how our society has become disposable, rather than a Devon problem.

I'm not saying that they let everyone with knowledge go, but they sure left a bunch of people that feel entitled.

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Post ID: @1hbg+G1wXX3i

Please ignore the responses except reaching out. NO ONE gets this level of pain except those who have been there. As much as you may not believe it now, you can survive the pain and move forward to a time where the pain eases.

Contrary to what you are being told here, especially by bullies and trolls, we both know this isn't a pull up your boot straps and get on with it situation. You've experienced a blow to your core values, character, belief system and identity. If you are like I was, it doesn't help thinking that anyone cares about you. It didn't change the pain and even added to the devastation of my existence because I realized that I did have people who cared, I just wasn't willing to risk telling them the reality and depth of my despair.

When I was at the point you seem in this post, ALL I wanted was relief from the pain and ending things was the only way I could figure to make that happen. There ARE ways to stop the pain besides suicide, but it is up to you to reach out. You are actually reaching out now, by sharing your pain and plan on this site. Which leads me to believe that in your deepest core, you really don't want "out" just relief.

As pointed out in others replies there are ways to get help. National Suicide Hotline, clergy, counsellors, and others. Reaching out may be the most difficult action you can think about at the moment, but you can do it. Battle through the fog for some clarity. Many of us have fought the idea of relief by death and gone on to live full, enjoyable, and satisfying lives, where the blanket of storm clouds lifts and the sun actually shines. Please don't wait to reach out either. NSH is available 24/7 and I promise, they "get" it.

+18002738255

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Post ID: @1zfv+G1wXX3i

Buy a generic like Goody's Extra Strength Acetaminophen. Dollar Store even offers free in-store pick up or UPS delivery. Much cheaper and same results.

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Post ID: @1jbg+G1wXX3i

Tornado season is just around the corner the next huge spring storm drive down to Moore and your prayer will be answered and you will go out with a thrill

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Post ID: @1nnl+G1wXX3i

Put your faith in Jesus Christ. He cares for you. Go to a good church this sunday and reach out to someone with these hurts!

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Post ID: @kns+G1wXX3i

Guns are more effective and easy to come by. You obviously don't want to kill yourself and are seeking help. Get professional help. If your former coworkers don't reach out, reach out to them - rejection is the worst thing that will happen. Also, life is a crazy random ride and should be enjoyed before heading to the endless oblivion.

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Post ID: @chd+G1wXX3i

First of all Tylenol is most stupid and inefficient way to kill yourself, ok? Second of all, what if you turn yourself into a vegetable? You think life is bad now? Imagine laying in bed all the time with a dirty butt, because a nurse is too tired to clean you and wondering if anyone gonna come and clean your rear? And they won't help you with suicide either. You'll be stuck.

In addition, that's just a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Fool, you are in America! They got all financial assistantce programs. And lady/dude, get better friends, would ya?

And finally you can do so many cool things now - ride motorcycles, jump with a parachute, go to Bahamas and snorkel, eat amazing cakes and ice creams and steaks, read awesome books, ride horses, get high on weed and magic mushrooms, travel, build rockets, get drunk with strangers in a bar, go to strip clubs or zoo or museums, take a cruise, go to Vegas, or sell everything and live like a hippy. You could even become Tibetian monk. You could get PhD. You could get on top of a very high building and try to spit on passing people or throw eggs and then run from fat cops. You could start a fight in a bar and then run off. You could climb a mountain. You could get helicopter license. You could move to Tahiti and live in a hut and barrens. You could move to Brazil and breed panthers. You could even go camping and make fire, dance around it and scream on top of your lungs: "F--- you all!!!" And instead you gonna take Tylenol and destroy your liver? When you need your health the most???? Are you stupid? Finally, if you want to die spectacularly, go to Alaska, find a bear, and scream at it. If the bear runs away, you'll get a kick out of it. And donate your severance package to homeless African kids before you go. You'll make their day, I promise you. They'll be better friends. They'll visit your grave for the rest of their lives for saving them. Tylenol is just lame.

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Post ID: @cva+G1wXX3i

I can see how sad and betrayed you feel. I want you to know that you are not alone. Please reach out for help and support through the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK(8255). There are local crisis counselors available 24/7 who will listen to you and care about you. I know you want your pain to end, but death is not the only way to do that.

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Post ID: @tsn+G1wXX3i

It's not your fault, it's you were just not good enough to work at Devon. We hired some stooges after 2008 and once they are all gone we can get back to being an exceptional company. Consider working for a state government, then when things turn around you can get a job at Continental or who ever buys CHK.

Good Luck!

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Post ID: @tgy+G1wXX3i

I was laid off from Devon in Houston in 2008 after four years. I have maintained contact with one friend (also laid off about 6 months later), other wise never heard from any work "friends". Not to worry, most such friends are not really friends such it was a forced marriage. Typically your real friends are the ones you gravitate toward without being forced to. I currently work with a group of idiots and backstabbers but it's my reponsibility to play a role and make believe we are best friends.

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Post ID: @sgw+G1wXX3i
  1. Take responsibility for your emotions - our emotions tend to betray us

  2. Delineate between what is beyond your control and what is within your control - actually write them down. Mark out what is beyond your control. Focus on what is in your control

  3. Draw a line between you and a job. A job is simply how you pay for your real life - any job will do.

  4. Never dump your emotions on others to feel for you (like a website). Take responsibility (see #1). suicide is a selfish way to ask people to take responsibility for your emotions. Suck it up and deal with these emotions directly.

  5. Don't make work your social network (for this very reason).

Good luck to you.

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Post ID: @izs+G1wXX3i

Trust me the folks at Devon that you think will care about you won't even know you wrote on this blog. I have been let go by Devon twice and there is life and a much better life after Devon. No one from Devon reached out to me either both times even though they said they would. It is the nature of the business and perhaps just the times. Reach out for help. Life after Devon is actually spectacular. I too have them 12 - 16 hour days until I put myself out of a job. Enjoy life. It is spectacular. Focus on you and not a company.

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Post ID: @qit+G1wXX3i

If you are serious, you need to find help. Find a counselor, a clergyman, hell, find a sympathetic bartender. If you too that much Tylenol, go to the doctor.

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Post ID: @udc+G1wXX3i

I have been through a couple of layoffs (one at Devon), while my wife was battling illness and my daughter sick. It was certainly tough, but I made it thro', blessed to be alive and doing well.

Look, your identity is not found in your job. Your life is precious and Jesus died for you, so you can have LIFE, with or without Devon. Praying for you right now and I know there is power in the name of Jesus and He will set you free from harmful thoughts.

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Post ID: @gev+G1wXX3i

You are worth more and deserve better. I am sure you have been through worse things in life. This to shall pass. Please know you are not alone in the way you feel.

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Post ID: @htz+G1wXX3i

You work to live a certain life but you should always ask what are you living for? For me, it extends beyond what I ever could imagine. It's waking up in the morning and not trying to conquer the world but make it a better. Don't ever take for granted your health, family and friends. You have to remember we all stumble but you get up and dust your self off and keep moving forward. Be humble, confident and know there are people who care about you...

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Post ID: @wuz+G1wXX3i

This world is better off without you!

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Post ID: @clp+G1wXX3i

Hey ,screw Devon there is more to life than some overrated oil company,consider yourself lucky ,get out there and meet people not connected to Devon ,There is life after Devon

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Post ID: @rcr+G1wXX3i

Do not take it personal,there is a better job around the corner.

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Post ID: @pqf+G1wXX3i

NO Company is worth this! My husband was in a similar situation. A 50% pay cut and we survived and are now thriving with help Of The Lord. Just try Him. Ask for help and guidance. YOU have nothing to lose and So much to gain. He WILL hear you. You will SURVIVE.

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Post ID: @hvo+G1wXX3i

If you are trolling, this is nothing to joke about. I'm sorry you are struggling. Life will get better. Please don't hurt yourself. If you need help, please call the suicide hotline. There always people wanting to help.

+18002738255

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Post ID: @bnp+G1wXX3i

It was my life. I worked late every day

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Post ID: @ovi+G1wXX3i

Gez, It is just a job! You have life ahead of you. Other great things besides job. O&G is suffering and will for a while and there are other great companies out there. Things WILL get better. I also lost my job, but I will move on. But I know I can find another one because I like what I do. A job is important but not everything, look for other things in life, a hobby, a family, etc

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