I used to really care about my job. I took pride in doing my best and didn’t dread going into work every day. Last year, I was super anxious about layoffs, pi---d about RTO/the way it was handled, but still found myself excelling at work. I still believed in what we do and felt that it all meant something.
The last 12 months have been trying to say the least. In what should’ve been the happiest year of my life, I’ve found myself constantly stressed and jaded because of one reason: my job. Work doesn’t make sense anymore. Nothing is improved, nothing is made more efficient, nothing changes. Add looming layoffs, sh---y bonuses/raises, and RTO into the mix and you get apathy.
Now, I still “excel” at work, but I’ve lost my drive and motivation. I just don’t care anymore because caring has only brought me frustration and pain. I just want to go home most days. There’s ZERO enjoyment or fulfillment in my job.
What tf happened to this company? I see so many people feeling the same way, it’s horrifying to witness how far morale has fallen. Employees aren’t being listened to and just told to put a smile on for the glint survey, lest a target be put on your back. I want out, but the job market su-ks right now. I need this job, but I never thought I’d end up hating it. A layoff doesn’t seem like that bad of an outcome anymore. A sad state of affairs for a once happy employee.