I was laid off this round. It's happened before - years ago. In both cases, I had every impression that I was a top performer, right up to the day I was let go. It seems pretty clear in this recent round that performance wasn't the key factor, if it was even a major factor. People I'd worked with for years, and the known "go to" people; the "If you're really stuck, go see this person"; many of those were RIF'd this time. So many that I have colleagues who weren't RIF'd but still have been despairing for days: "How the heck do we keep this going now without these people?!" So, to those feeling all kinds of conflicting emotions, one person's opinion - it's natural to be feeling what you're feeling. It won't go away overnight. But, in my experience, you do come to terms with it. Let yourself feel it, but don't let it debilitate you. Eventually, you'll need to pick yourself up off the floor and take actions to get yourself back where you and your family need you to be. Allowing the emotions to overwhelm you doesn't help that. There's a middle ground. Some people on this site want to pretend that feeling nothing is the right way out. I can't see how that's a healthy reaction, but I'm not all-knowing. "We could all lose our jobs any day of the week. I worked for the same company for 15 years. I did good quality work. They discarded me. I feel nothing." I don't see that helping anybody, myself, but if it floats your boat, live that way. On the flip side, losing sleep and not being able to function - that's not helping either. Give it the weight it deserves. Each of us makes that choice, but recognize that you are still alive. You are still here. People still need you. And yes, people still care. You are not alone. There's about 13,000 of us, for starters. More if you look across companies laying people off recently. You are not alone.