It’s that time again where many of us sit down to review our year only to be hit by surprise with “negative” feedback that came through to us by the way of telephone; or someone is rift about something and has a vendetta. He said, she said and opinions always win over actual facts. It doesn’t matter to even document your items anymore considering the HR policies have changed so that you can get fired for anything at anytime anyways. Why do we bother when our opinions or data to back ourselves up doesn’t matter. Why do we review ourselves as if it’s going to be accounted for. Don’t get me started on the “goals” consistently being moving targets with no actual grasp or valuable impact. Also don’t get me started on how BDP and his reports all like to act “surprised” when any of us little people say anything about unfair conditions. As if they’re actually flabbergasted. Please work on pretending to be shocked cause we’re not buying it. Most of the people leaders just tap dance - act as though they adore us to the public, but work overtime to misunderstand and misdirect us behind the scenes.
If you, like myself, were told you were above or on target only to be blindsided in the end by being bumped down - don’t let it get to you. The current state of the company is mirroring the American railroad infrastructure. We see how that’s turning out. You just keep driving the train the best you can if you have to. If you have the luxury to leave, please do so before the train derailments greatly impact you to a point of no return. Like the ever growing poisonous smoke clouds from the derailments, there’s only more detriment to come as a result of the trash direction and leadership in this company.
These “targets” are largely not a reflection of you or your character. Besides, who cares what any of the personality hires who lied on their resume to become a “people leader” or paid for their award on some company’s list have to say or think anyways. Whatever you do, don’t allow yourself to become part of the cancer culture that has overtaken the company by allowing those same egomaniacal soulless people to negatively impact your emotions or your health. There are too many individual contributors mentally and physically burning out beyond recovery. Considering no one at the top and many in leadership cares, why care to keep pushing yourself into survival states in an environment where it’s impossible to thrive. Prioritize and take care of yourself. Don’t stop tracking your work in extensive spreadsheet or what have you, but take that information and use it to go find something better outside of this company where you’re truly appreciated and not forced to backstab and brownnose to get what you’re worth.
And a final word to BDP and whoever this applies to - LINKEDIN LEARNING IS NOT REAL TRAINING! Fund us trainings with tangible certifications, etc. and MAYBE we’d be more willing to stay on this hamster wheel. Stop being cheap. CareFirst University did far more for us then any of this LinkedIn Learning cr-p ever did. You want us to improve ourselves but think staring at screens listening to people babble only to end up with a useless virtual certificate that doesn’t actually matter anywhere is sufficient. And stop messing with bonuses to hurt the little people for your people leader failures. There are employees who actually rely on them for childcare, etc. But why would you do that when you only care about your pockets and your surroundings am I right? The little people are always disposable in the end. Spare us the calculated reactions with vague passive aggressive commentary in the CEO chat (or under this post since certain people leaders/lackies have anonymous energy to argue in replies but not carry that energy in-person or otherwise) and PR response type executive messages. Take your entitled feelings that you refuse to sit with because they make you uncomfortable and just save it. We don’t care to hear it. We’d rather see actual positive change for us and or just not be berated altogether.
- Toodaloo